Welcome To Hell


What happened to my mind
What wires shorted out
How did I end up here
My sanity in doubt?

My life has now become
A truly living hell
But what I learned the most
Is never never tell

Locked inside of hell
Created in my mind
The walls and lock were real
But peace was not mine to find

So home I am again
And life continues on
But peace my mind has lost
And sadness comes with dawn

I’m locked inside depression
A fate much worse than death
No one understands the pit that I am in
The pain with every breath

I will not harm myself
For that there’s too much fear
But if God should call me home
I’ll gladly disappear

I want to ask him why
What did I do to earn all this
Was it something that I said
Or am I just a curse?

I’ve tried to live my life
The best that I can try
But tears are all I found
Now my heart’s too cold to cry

It’s more than just some sadness
It’s deeper than the blues
My brain has been miswired
All I seem to do is lose

They ply me with their drugs
And talk to me of hope
Wondering at my intent
If I have the strength to cope

I want so bad to change
To make it go away
To laugh and love and live again
To find promise in today

What must I do to get there
To put an end to all the tears
How the hell do I find healing
And quiet all my fears?

Maybe it will never be
These things beyond my reach
A life of hell and torment
My demons to forever preach

Goodnight my love
You stood beside me through it all
So much more of life you deserve
Please answer when it calls.